First Day of Divorce After a Two Year Marriage !!

An overwhelming feeling of guilt is filing my heart. Right now, i am sitting at my new 14th floor office, on the first day of my new job, and all i can feel is a heavy dose of self-hate !!

Just last night, my wife asked me for a divorce !!

over our 2 and a half years of marriage , we had our share of fights, disagreements and breakup threats. We never, however, used the D-word (Divorce) in our fights. We would use words like separation, moving on, but the word Divorce was a subconscious No-No, by both of us !!

Which made her bold request last night that much significant !

I can't deny that I have thought about divorce several times over the course of my marriage. I even thought about it the day before she asked for it. but never felt as bad as when she mentioned those words to me. It felt like a cold knife being stabbed right into my heart. I don't know if I love her or not, it is hard to indentify how I feel toward her, but one thing is for sure, I am going to miss the hell out of her !!

I will not lie, I have cheated on my wife twice during our marriage. Both times were one time flings that meant nothing, but I cheated nevertheless !

our fights were frequent, and were not fair. We would call each other names, patronize each other, and there weren't a lot of respect going around. sometimes we fight over money, kids, and time we devote to each other. These seems to be the usual fights that couples have, then they move on and make up. The problem is that we never really do. There always remains some fire under the ashes, and the slightest spark would re-ignite the fight all over again !

Our parents and family are already sick with us. Saying that we need to be more mature and handle our problems better. "All couples go through this", so they say, "so don't make a big deal out of it" !!

I can't even pin-point what exactly is my problem with her. I think she is very attractive, so its not a physical or sexual issue. But her personality is just impossible -for me at least, to deal with. She gets mad and yells over the smallest of issues, always nags about money, no matter how much she gets, disrespectful to others, including me and my parents, lazy, and irresponsible.

The bottom line is that all of a sudden, I feel lonely, really really lonely. It has been less than 24 hours since she asked for the divorce, and we have agreed that I will keep custody of our child. I just can't help but feel sorry for her, for our son, and for myself.

Deep in my heart, I know it is over. I know that we are not getting back together this time. But a part of me is still hopeful. Hopeful for a second chance. I think this is driven by fear. fear of loneliness. Yes i admit that i am not even scared of being alone , I am terrified !!

Married to a Saudi Bitch - Scene 2

Well, i guess the situation is getting worse since my last post. This could be very well the straw that broke the camel's back !!

The most recent incident with the wife goes as follows, last Friday my wife had a wedding to attend. For the people who are not familiar with weddings in Saudi. Weddings are a female-only event, which starts at 12-1 AM and ends sometime around 5 AM. Naturally, women go to Salons and get their hair done sometime at the evening of the wedding night, and then get dressed and go to the wedding.

Our agreed upon family rule is that we never leave our 6 months old son alone with maid. If someone had an event to attend, or is busy with a commitment, the other partner will stay home with the baby, along with the maid of course. HOWEVER, since my wife will be returning from the wedding at 5 in the morning, she will going home with her mom to her parents house, and she like to have her "baby" at home where she is spending the night because she "just misses him soooooo much" !!!!!!!!!

So, we agreed as an exception that she can take him to her parents house, leave him their with the made throughout the night (Since everybody is at the wedding). That was ok !

The second day , Saturday afternoon, she calls me and say that she wants to go to the beach ( One of the many sea resorts on the north of Jeddah) with her family. Her mom, aunts, and sisters are going, and she wants to get a tan. She also mentioned that she is leaving our son at home, alone with the maid , AGAIN !!!

Of course, i insisted that she stops by our home, and drop my son, since i am spending the whole day at home, and i can baby sit him.

That's where the fight started. She claims that i distrust her parents because i don't allow her to leave my son alone with them. She also says that i don't mind leaving my son alone with my parents (Which is true) but i do when he is alone with hers ( Not True).

Anyways, our fight got so bad last night, that we already started talking about custody arrangements for our son after the divorce !!!

Personally i would love to get a divorce and be single again :)

But i have to think of my son first, he is the priority here, not me. Our arrangement states that our son will be staying with me, at my parents house, and she will have a full access to him anytime she wants. Which suits me pretty well.

However, i don't want to deny my son the pleasure of living with his mom. I would like him to wake up to her voice, set on the breakfast table with her , and listen to the "Be careful" and " don't get in any fight" talk before he takes off to school. I believe that it is his right to be raised in a loving and caring family. And i don't believe that either me oe his mom has put enough effort into providing that for him.

Admittedly, we are not happy together. We have our good days, and bad days, like any couple. But the fact that a small and trivial matter like the incident last week get blown up to this , means that both of us have reached our limit, and we are looking for excuses to get out. Even though we wouldn't confess to that publicly, or even consciously to ourselves !!!

I don't know how next week will turnout like, we will just have to wait and see.

I will keep you posted :)

Married to a Saudi "Bitch" !!!

The only thing worst than being married, is being married to a "Bitch" !! . I don't know if being married to a bitch in Saudi is different than being married to one in another country, but for the hell of it, i am listing the "unique" properties of a "Saudi Bitch Wife" :

1- He voice never goes below "Loud"

2- The words "Thank You" and "Please" don't exist in her "limited" vocabulary

3- Demands to have a maid "Before" even moving out of her house

4- Demands to have a driver

5- Doesn't like your mom

6-Doesnt like "her" mom

7- Constantly on her phone, or msn talking to her sisters , cousins, and friends

8- Doesn't have a job

9- Doesn't do house work

10- Spends money faster than how Bill Gates make it !!!

11- Smells horribly

12- No matter how much weight she gains, she is still "skinny"

That's what i have on her now, probably the list will get longer very soon :P

I Love Belly Dancing

Man look at this girl dancing. There is something to Arab girls, that no girls in the world has. I don't know what to call it , in Arabic it is "Ghonj" or ('3onj). It is something between being spoiled but respectful, sexy and classy.

Videos like this make me seriously contemplate a Mesyar marriage, a girl like that, preferably non-Saudi , who can shake it like this one :).

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